My Future

So I've decided that I would like to win the lottery (I know that to win the lottery I have to buy tickets, so maybe I should start with that). Anyways, I'd like to win the lottery, then move somewhere beautiful where I would live in a log home or cabin on a lake that has large bay windows and a big porch with a beautiful view. I'd like to spend my days on the porch making crafts, like jewelry and fun little handmade knick knacks and have my sewing machine out there to continue to make clothing and such. I could then set up my own online shop to sell my things to people who are going to appreciate them. Of course I wouldn't want to be alone in this plan so I would have a husband who could have his own office and work from home. I could make us lunch and we'll sit on our porch and eat together everyday. Then eventually we will have children who I can teach my handmade crafts to, I'll be a stay at home mom and be able to take them to school and back. Of course I'll need to have my friends around me, so I will buy them a log home or cabin on a lake that has large bay windows and a big porch with a beautiful view right next to mine. My friends will have children at the same time as I will so they can all be the same age and grow up being the best of friends.

We will live happy and peaceful lives. 

It'll be grand.

Dream as if you'll live forever,

Live as if you'll die tomorrow.

-James Dean

You ain't living 'til you're living it

I've never felt this way before. This feeling of absolute contentment. These days life has been good to me and I'm filled with gratitude. I wake up in the morning and step outside into the fresh air and soak up the sun that I've been longing for these past several months. The smells, sounds, and beauty that come along with spring, is not only changing mother nature around me, it's revitalizing my own sense of self as well. This season is bringing rebirth, renewal and regrowth to not only me, but my closest friends. From relationships ending, to the dissatisfaction of a new job and also for one person, the desire of striving for more in her life. It is in my nature to help the people who are close to me and who I care about the most in my life. All I can say to these beautiful women around me is to keep your head held high and know that you all deserve the best and will achieve that if you just believe in yourself. You need to learn from these experiences and let yourself grow from them. Also, that I love you all very much and don't know what I would do without you.

I have a man in my life who amazes me everyday. His confidence, intelligence and perseverance is what draws me to him. He's helping me to discover what my goals and dreams are in life. I rarely think about my future and my desires and I know I should be. He's helping me to build my future and will do anything to support me and make sure that I'm happy. There are definitely things that I need to start thinking about to kick start my future. There are a few things that I know make me happy. I enjoy the company of people and assisting them with their problems. I'm a very empathetic person and I think that's why I enjoy the medical field. It can be very rewarding at times. I went to a Reiki master one time who told me that she can tell I am very in tune with peoples emotions and am easily effected by them. She said to be careful of this and put a white light around myself to protect me from negative emotions. 


Another thing that makes me really happy is sewing. I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and remember how much I enjoy it. One of my proudest moments was in high school when I won an award for the highest marks in my fashion class in grade twelve. As soon as possible I am going to get back into making clothes and other amazing things. I have two whole totes full of fabric that are calling my name from the basement right now. Anyways, these are just a couple of things that I've discovered that are important in my life and I can't wait to find out more. 


Also, in two sleeps I'll be headed out on a road trip to Sasquatch music festival in Washington. My beautiful friend and I will embark on an amazing experience of driving for hours, camping, music, drinking and thousands of people. I haven't been on an actual vacation since LA a few years ago so I'm ready to get out of this city. We will also be going to Kelowna for a day on our way home. We are all booked to go on a zip line tour for a couple of hours, which will be absolutely thrilling. So much to look forward to in the next week! I'm not used to leaving the city, so I'm a little concerned that I'm already starting to feel separation anxiety from my parents, boyfriend and dog. I know that as soon as I leave I'll forget about everything and just have the time of my life! Adios for now. 

Being your best is not so much about overcoming the barriers other people place in front of you

 as it is about overcoming the barriers we place in front of ourselves. 

It has nothing to do with how many times you win or lose. 

It has no relation to where you finish in a race or whether you break world records.

 But it does have everything to do with having the vision to dream, 

the courage to recover from adversity and the determination never to be shifted from your goals

 -Kieren Perkins

You are the love of my life



Simon
Born December 23, 2008



 Ever since I was a child I wanted to have a dog. It was number one on my Christmas list every year but my parents would never allow me to have one. I always told myself that as soon as I was out of the house and on my own I would get a dog. And that's exactly what happened...


Simon came into my life in March 2009 and immediately changed my life. Luckily for the first year of his life he got to come to work with me everyday at the vet clinic and he loved it there. He got to play with dogs all day and definitely got really attached to me, after spending every hour of everyday together. Now that he has his roommate/girlfriend Kuma he's even happier. His favorite activities are eating, riping apart stuffed animals, going to the park and sleeping under the covers. He has mastered getting himself under any blanket, which I have never seen a dog do. I love all of his qualities. How he's so goofy sometimes, and that when I just want to relax he'll curl up on my lap under the covers. I also like how when he meets new people he's a little shy and it takes him awhile to warm up to them and be comfortable around them, just like how I am with certain people. It's amazing that we have such a strong connection to each other. Sometimes we will just lay together and look into each others eyes. I know that sounds super lame, but I can just tell he wouldn't want to be anywhere else in the world if he wasn't with me. I really couldn't have asked for a better companion, he is truly my best friend.

He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog.

You are his life, his love, his leader.

He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart.

You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.

-Unknown 

Stillness

This past Sunday the roomie and I woke up early to go to the Centre for Spiritual Living. It was my first time attending the service and I didn't really know what to expect. Growing up my parents never made me attend church and the one time I did go, I found it ridiculous and kind of hilarious. I don't really bother having an opinion on religion, God, or a higher power because it will probably be something I wont ever be able to fully understand or believe in. Anyways, the Centre was gorgeous, with high ceilings and tall stained glass panes that lit up the room. Even though I was surrounded by beauty, at first I found myself uncomfortable and quite self-conscious. I almost felt as though I didn't belong there. But as time passed and tons of thoughts went through my head, I finally said to myself, why am I being so insecure? I'm entitled to be here just as much as everyone else. These people don't care that I don't know the songs we are singing, they probably don't even notice that I'm here. I took a deep breathe and finally started enjoying the service. The speaker, Dr. Carol Carnes was amazing. Her teachings of a spiritual way of life were very interesting. I love how the service was so positive and full of peace and harmony  There is no doubt that I will being going back to the Centre for more services. Also, summer is soon approaching which means I'll be reading lots, so I'll probably buy some books on spirituality and learn more about that way of life. I'm not sure why, but summer is usually the only time I really enjoy reading. I can't wait for the warm weather by the way... I'm thrilled to start taking Simon to the park, getting in shape, going rafting, sewing some beautiful clothing and all the many other things I'm planning on filling my days with.

I'm feeling very happy with my life right now. My friends are amazing and my relationship couldn't be going any better than it is. I'm really thankful for the change that I've gone through over the last year. I hope that in the near future I can start discovering what it is I want to do for my career. I'm thinking that it might be time for a change in that aspect of my life. Maybe I'll become a Reiki master and practice stillness everyday in a calm and quiet environment. Wouldn't that be lovely?

Anyways, I'm off to ride my cloud to dreamland...

Stillness is what creates love.

Movement is what creates life.

To be still and still moving

—this is everything.

-Do Hyun Choe

In this moment..

I'm frustrated with myself. Not being at work for a week is really bothering me. I go in and out from feeling alright with everything that happened to feeling awful. I always try to work hard and do everything to the best of my ability, especially when it comes to my job. So when I fail at something it really brings me down especially because I was really enjoying how things were at work. I guess nobody is perfect, especially me, and I'm okay with that. Everything is going to be okay, I just have to keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason.

The greatest mistake you can make in life

 is to continually be afraid you will make one.
Elbert Hubbard

All You Need Is Love

What an amazing past few days... Let just start by saying that I had the most amazing Valentine's Day of my life! I had the perfect evening with my man, in which we talked about our relationship and how we felt about each other. It was so liberating to know that he felt how I felt and wanted what I wanted and it's now official! It's such a weight off my shoulders knowing that I can just forget about all the crazy insecure things that run through my brain and just know that he wants to be with me and only me. So I pretty much feel like a million bucks right now!

Let talk about another huge part of my life, which is a little thing people like to call music. The new Hey Rosetta! cd came out yesterday and is filling my world with joy, serenity, tranquility and all the other millions emotions it makes me feel. I find it so amazing how music moves me in so many ways. I can start my day off listening to a certain genre of music and it will set the mood for my day. I can be in a totally horrible mood and then a song will brighten up my day. I can listen to something upbeat, dance around my house and have the time of my life or I can listen to something slow and soothing that will calm and support me as I lay crying to myself to sleep. It brings out so much emotion in me, that certain musicians will bring tears to my eyes while I listen to them pour their hearts out on stage. It's likely that you'll find me crying at a concert that means a lot to me, like when I saw City and Colour and Dallas Green sang one of my favourite songs called as much as I ever could. I love that this is something that I will always cherish and be passionate about for the rest of my life and it will always be there for me when I need it. Its a wonderful feeling knowing that something will always be there for you...

On another note I am very much looking forward to this weekend. I'll be spending my days in the mountains surrounded by fresh air, wonderful friends, beautiful scenery and lets not forget the candy stores. I can't wait to just get away and have a relaxing weekend.

So there it is.. Let's cheers to love, music and life!

Music, once admitted to the soul,

becomes a sort of spirit, and never dies.

  -Edward George Bulwer-Lytton



In one week...

It'll be Valentine's Day. Lovers will be presenting to each other gifts like flowers and chocolates and I'm sure restaurants will be flooded with couples celebrating the day. Children will hand out their valentines into each others hand made boxes placed on their desks at school, giving out a special valentine to the one kid they have a crush on. Some will celebrate this day with passion and lust while others will be alone because they don't have a significant other to spend the day with. Either way, I hope everyone has a wonderful Valentine's Day! Even if you don't have a special someone to spend the day with, stay positive and just know there is someone out there for everyone. Don't be afraid to express how you feel about someone close to you on this day, it could mean the world to them. I know I can't wait to be with the one man I care about the most in my life right now. So I'll end this post with my favorite love quote of all time and hope that everyone keeps in mind that in reality, we should share our love with friends, family and lovers every day of the week, not just on Valentine's Day! 

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
So I love you because I know no other way than this:

 where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

-Pablo Neruda

Cosmic Love

This morning I woke up in complete happiness. I was in the arms of a wonderful man who I immensely care about and in return cares about me. The view out of his bedroom window of the city, the moon and a few stars put me in absolute bliss.

It reminded me of one of my favorite songs called Cosmic Love by Florence and the Machine. I found this interpretation of the song by someone on the internet and thought it's pretty much spot on. They wrote: "This song is about a woman who falls in, apparently, unrequited love with a man. She feels so consumed and overwhelmed by this emotion - blinded by the intensity of it - that she is literally in the dark; totally lost, confused, scared, cannot see the wood for the trees, and also in agony because she believes that he doesn't feel the same way. She decides she has to remove herself from his influence, yet in doing so she finds out that he is in fact in love with her too, so they lose themselves in each other."

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

-Florence and the Machine

Good Hearted

Definition: showing or motivated by sympathy, understanding and generosity; having or showing a tender, considerate and helpful nature.


I don't understand people sometimes. Why does the world have to be full of so many selfish people? Has this always been a problem in our society or is it something that's just been increasing with our generation. Why can't generosity and kindness be a life lesson that all parents teach their children? My parents did... I  obviously have days where being kind isn't on the top of my list but I like to think that most days it is. I care so much about my friends and family that I would do anything for them. If they need my help I will stop what I'm doing or cancel my plans to be there for them. In my mind, there's nothing more important then helping someone you love.

I don't understand why people can't go a little out of their way for someone else. Even take just half an hour out of their "busy" everyday lives to do something simple for you. I guess I know now that family will always be the people I can turn to. So this will be a tribute to my beautiful sister Sarah, who's caring soul shines brighter then anyone I know. Why can't people be more like us? :)

If you want others to be happy, practice compassion.

  If you want to be happy, practice compassion. 

-Dalai Lama

Reflecting

Tonight I looked back into this past year.. I feel as though my life did a whole three sixty and what an amazing change it has been. Almost exactly a year ago I found myself falling into a black hole. I was in a relationship that I knew was not going to work out and yet I still stayed in it. I was filled with loneliness and was not living the life I wanted to or becoming the person I wanted to be. Ever since I made a change, my life has turned right side up. I've gone fom having no friends by my side to finally having the most amazing friends anyone could ask for. I have a wonderful job, payed off my student loan, moved into a beautful new home and am finally becoming the person I want to be. I used to not know who I was and now every day I'm learning new things about myself. I'm finding beauty in the smallest things and am now realizing how much of that beauty is all around me.

On my twenty first birthday a few months ago, I told myself that I was going to make sure that this is one of the best years of my life. And so far it has been. I'm a whole new person and I love it. What a great experience the last couple years of my life were though.. I would never take those years back. It made me into the person I am today and really made me grow as a woman. I'm trying to stay positive in everything I do and hope to gain more confidence as time goes on. There's one thing I do know and that is it feels wonderful to be alive, be passionate and most importantly...be happy!

The way to happiness: keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry.

Live simply, expect little, give much. Fill your life with love.

Scatter sunshine. Forget self, think of others.

Do as you would be done by. Try this for a week and you will be surprised.

-Norman Vincent Peale