You ain't living 'til you're living it

I've never felt this way before. This feeling of absolute contentment. These days life has been good to me and I'm filled with gratitude. I wake up in the morning and step outside into the fresh air and soak up the sun that I've been longing for these past several months. The smells, sounds, and beauty that come along with spring, is not only changing mother nature around me, it's revitalizing my own sense of self as well. This season is bringing rebirth, renewal and regrowth to not only me, but my closest friends. From relationships ending, to the dissatisfaction of a new job and also for one person, the desire of striving for more in her life. It is in my nature to help the people who are close to me and who I care about the most in my life. All I can say to these beautiful women around me is to keep your head held high and know that you all deserve the best and will achieve that if you just believe in yourself. You need to learn from these experiences and let yourself grow from them. Also, that I love you all very much and don't know what I would do without you.

I have a man in my life who amazes me everyday. His confidence, intelligence and perseverance is what draws me to him. He's helping me to discover what my goals and dreams are in life. I rarely think about my future and my desires and I know I should be. He's helping me to build my future and will do anything to support me and make sure that I'm happy. There are definitely things that I need to start thinking about to kick start my future. There are a few things that I know make me happy. I enjoy the company of people and assisting them with their problems. I'm a very empathetic person and I think that's why I enjoy the medical field. It can be very rewarding at times. I went to a Reiki master one time who told me that she can tell I am very in tune with peoples emotions and am easily effected by them. She said to be careful of this and put a white light around myself to protect me from negative emotions. 


Another thing that makes me really happy is sewing. I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and remember how much I enjoy it. One of my proudest moments was in high school when I won an award for the highest marks in my fashion class in grade twelve. As soon as possible I am going to get back into making clothes and other amazing things. I have two whole totes full of fabric that are calling my name from the basement right now. Anyways, these are just a couple of things that I've discovered that are important in my life and I can't wait to find out more. 


Also, in two sleeps I'll be headed out on a road trip to Sasquatch music festival in Washington. My beautiful friend and I will embark on an amazing experience of driving for hours, camping, music, drinking and thousands of people. I haven't been on an actual vacation since LA a few years ago so I'm ready to get out of this city. We will also be going to Kelowna for a day on our way home. We are all booked to go on a zip line tour for a couple of hours, which will be absolutely thrilling. So much to look forward to in the next week! I'm not used to leaving the city, so I'm a little concerned that I'm already starting to feel separation anxiety from my parents, boyfriend and dog. I know that as soon as I leave I'll forget about everything and just have the time of my life! Adios for now. 

Being your best is not so much about overcoming the barriers other people place in front of you

 as it is about overcoming the barriers we place in front of ourselves. 

It has nothing to do with how many times you win or lose. 

It has no relation to where you finish in a race or whether you break world records.

 But it does have everything to do with having the vision to dream, 

the courage to recover from adversity and the determination never to be shifted from your goals

 -Kieren Perkins